T-E-A-R-S

Tears flood-in in times of pain
In times of anger and disgust
Emotions break-out into tears
At sad and happy moments of life

A tear, a woman's weakness
A tear, a man's weakness too!
A tear, backed by fear
or sheer excitement

That single drop of H2O
More than hydrogen and oxygen (and salt!)
Carries the message "I am hurt"
Sometimes says with a smile "I am happy"

"Thanks :-)" "Sorry :-)"
"I Love you" "I miss you".

I dropped a tear now
A simple path down my cheeks
travelling to the corner of my lips
Tickling the already tickled emotions, it said -

"You make my life better - Stay on please"

I am neither happy nor sad
Worried no, not anxious too
The tear slipped .... just because
I am too shy to tell you how much you mean to me -
"You make my life better - Stay on please"

Everything ... nothing

There was everything,
Everything that I could ever want.
Cake, candles, flowers and drinks.
A friend too, who means a lot..

gifts too, of course :-)
How can I miss them!
They took me all by surprise.
... there was everything

The theatre tickets ..
..they had the icing effect -
Thank you so much!
..there was everything.

Still there was emptiness ..
..Loneliness and sadness!
There was everything ..
.. yet there was nothing.

ALPENLIEBE and my Sleeping-mind

Three things that I cannot really boast about:

1. My observation from the Television

2. My memory in general

3. My sense of topographical direction



Recently, I have also exposed to some new friends, how weak my above related skills are. But of course, this does not interrupt my day-to-day life and still keeps me on a moderate profile job and brings in some money for the cheese! on the bread that my husband already brings home!



This tale is about this morning, when things were little different ..
I woke up late to find my husband starring at the TV since two hours then, with great adoration in his eyes for a group of men, two of them trying to hit the ball and the rest waiting for it to sway in their direction!!!! Anyway, I have never spoken positive about this game, so there is no special reason to be good today.



He moved on to the computer to check mails and I just sat on the sofa and looked at the TV screen very un-interestedly! It was Kajol on the screen, making little funny faces, and there was a crocodile ... I had to rub my eyes to confirm that it was not Ajay or SRK!!! No, it was the crocodile, the alpenliebe crocodile :-)

Kajol went on to explain - Just once I fed him with an alpenliebe at the zoo and since then he has been behind me ... actually today I also managed to notice the mosaic design in the crocodile's eyes as he tasted the toffee!!



Huh! I closed my eyes and wanted to drift back to sleep, and ish ... there was a stupid dirty board in front of my eyes ... I am sure the board was painted in yellow and red combination when it was first put in place. It read "Please dont feed animals". I still could not really recognise what I was seing .. then I saw my mother, she looked much younger, wow! and that was my favorite brown saree that I wanted to own after her, as I grew older .... and OMG, thats my dad!! he was plumper and healthier and his hair still had strands of black ... and suddenly there was someone jumping next to me, and I was non-reactive, obviously must be my brother, i dont even have to turn back to confirm that, hahahaha



This was all too much to take on a sunday morning, and then I saw the white tiger ... Oh My! i am at the zoo . Calcutta Zoo ... I loved the white tiger, always .. what colour, what grace ... I could also recollect the poem "tiger" by William Blake .. but why all this now, I actually want a coffee ... and then it was that dirty board again and yes, there was something in Bengali, the words had faded with time ... sense of the language in me, as well!



Then I heard my husband actually screaming - wake up, there is no tiger here, who is blake? Your client? your sales person in the UK, US?



Piiicccchhhh .... Oh God ... I atlast woke up, eyes bright and open and I am sure I gave a very stupid look, for my husband just sighed and sat back on his chair, he had now shifted attention to the daily.


Thank you conscience ... you observed what my awake mind never saw - for so long ...



What Kajol did was violation of the rule that animals in zoo should not be fed with anything other than authorities approved food .. what wrong ideas the advertisement was suggesting for the young minds ... a mother of two, an icon, a celebrity, member of a dignified family, offers alpenliebe to a crocodile in a zoo at her age of 35 (just a guess!!)



Huh!



Now, I may not want to debate for my topographical sense of direction, but yo friends, my observation and memory ain't that bad, after all!!!



Good Week Guys!

Just For Our Sake

I feel so empty, so lost ..
I have sold everything for a high cost.
I gave trust and fidelity,
And in the trade, lost my self entity.


Giving is such a pleasure -
So much that I haven’t pondered into taking!

Your special attention makes me now think ..

After all let me try it once, risk it, why not?

The strange feeling isn’t just my nerves’ game,
I am old enough now, they are all tame.
This is something more, a feeling more core,
A feeling that had gone over the years sore!


I thank you for tingling them again.
In this, my soul is trying to regain.
I want back my lost self entity,
I want to pamper the woman in me.


No one else can decide what I deserve best,
My life is just my own test. Yet,
I plead you to hold hand-in-hand,
And take me to the unseen land.


While all that I ask is all that I want,
I am wondering if I will know what i really want!
I plead - Don’t do anything for just my sake,
I want the real you, not a fake!


In the end if I disappoint you, a bit or more,
For reasons that may please you not.
Forgive me, but believe too ..
I had put everything I had, and,
that I did give it my best till date.
- Just For Our Sake.

Forever Struggle

When you need to cry for your basic rights,
When everything has to come with a fight,
How pathetic life becomes for some!
More than sad, its so fearsome -



When you are not the priority,
When words of concern are rarity,
When life carries no clarity,
When you doubt the very chastity ...



then, life is no more a burden,
but every breath itself is ...
Tears no more have their effect,
The pain is lost with everything bereft -


But there is still hope,
If you wish to cope ...
Chances there are still many,
Though may be worth not a penny!



Make a fresh start, give all that you have saved,
Disappointing this may be again, the road still unpaved!
Lose not your temper, drop not a tear.
Count the years, for easier they may be -
than to count your days, for waiting may forever be!

मेरा नया बचपन - सुभद्रा कुमारी चौहान

My All-time favorite :-)

बार-बार आती है मुझको मधुर याद बचपन तेरी।
गया ले गया तू जीवन की सबसे मस्त खुशी मेरी॥

चिंता-रहित खेलना-खाना वह फिरना निर्भय स्वच्छंद।
कैसे भूला जा सकता है बचपन का अतुलित आनंद?

ऊँच-नीच का ज्ञान नहीं था छुआछूत किसने जानी?
बनी हुई थी वहाँ झोंपड़ी और चीथड़ों में रानी॥

किये दूध के कुल्ले मैंने चूस अँगूठा सुधा पिया।
किलकारी किल्लोल मचाकर सूना घर आबाद किया॥

रोना और मचल जाना भी क्या आनंद दिखाते थे।
बड़े-बड़े मोती-से आँसू जयमाला पहनाते थे॥

मैं रोई, माँ काम छोड़कर आईं, मुझको उठा लिया।
झाड़-पोंछ कर चूम-चूम कर गीले गालों को सुखा दिया॥

दादा ने चंदा दिखलाया नेत्र नीर-युत दमक उठे।
धुली हुई मुस्कान देख कर सबके चेहरे चमक उठे॥

वह सुख का साम्राज्य छोड़कर मैं मतवाली बड़ी हुई।
लुटी हुई, कुछ ठगी हुई-सी दौड़ द्वार पर खड़ी हुई॥

लाजभरी आँखें थीं मेरी मन में उमँग रँगीली थी।
तान रसीली थी कानों में चंचल छैल छबीली थी॥

दिल में एक चुभन-सी भी थी यह दुनिया अलबेली थी।
मन में एक पहेली थी मैं सब के बीच अकेली थी॥

मिला, खोजती थी जिसको हे बचपन! ठगा दिया तूने।
अरे! जवानी के फंदे में मुझको फँसा दिया तूने॥

सब गलियाँ उसकी भी देखीं उसकी खुशियाँ न्यारी हैं।
प्यारी, प्रीतम की रँग-रलियों की स्मृतियाँ भी प्यारी हैं॥

माना मैंने युवा-काल का जीवन खूब निराला है।
आकांक्षा, पुरुषार्थ, ज्ञान का उदय मोहनेवाला है॥

किंतु यहाँ झंझट है भारी युद्ध-क्षेत्र संसार बना।
चिंता के चक्कर में पड़कर जीवन भी है भार बना॥

आ जा बचपन! एक बार फिर दे दे अपनी निर्मल शांति।
व्याकुल व्यथा मिटानेवाली वह अपनी प्राकृत विश्रांति॥

वह भोली-सी मधुर सरलता वह प्यारा जीवन निष्पाप।
क्या आकर फिर मिटा सकेगा तू मेरे मन का संताप?

मैं बचपन को बुला रही थी बोल उठी बिटिया मेरी।
नंदन वन-सी फूल उठी यह छोटी-सी कुटिया मेरी॥

'माँ ओ' कहकर बुला रही थी मिट्टी खाकर आयी थी।
कुछ मुँह में कुछ लिये हाथ में मुझे खिलाने लायी थी॥

पुलक रहे थे अंग, दृगों में कौतुहल था छलक रहा।
मुँह पर थी आह्लाद-लालिमा विजय-गर्व था झलक रहा॥

मैंने पूछा 'यह क्या लायी?' बोल उठी वह 'माँ, काओ'।
हुआ प्रफुल्लित हृदय खुशी से मैंने कहा - 'तुम्हीं खाओ'॥

पाया मैंने बचपन फिर से बचपन बेटी बन आया।
उसकी मंजुल मूर्ति देखकर मुझ में नवजीवन आया॥

मैं भी उसके साथ खेलती खाती हूँ, तुतलाती हूँ।
मिलकर उसके साथ स्वयं मैं भी बच्ची बन जाती हूँ॥

जिसे खोजती थी बरसों से अब जाकर उसको पाया।
भाग गया था मुझे छोड़कर वह बचपन फिर से आया॥

Something-in-Between

Attach Detach
Merge Scatter
Together Separate
Love Hate

I remember my initial school lesssons,
Where we learnt antonyms of words -
Girl x Boy; Man x Woman
Good x Bad; Love x Hate

How simple these were -
Very easily taught.
Something that is not hot - Cold.
Someone who is not a Friend - Enemy.

How wrong all this is,
How superficial are these words.
For there exists no real love,
For there is no one we really hate!


I could love someone, still hate something in him,
I could like something hot, yet not that hot!
My classes never taught me what to call that -
I dont want the antonym, but Something-in-Between!


I hate a person for all the wrong that he did,
I still just love him for reasons very candid!
I just want to separate, just leave him.
I still want to hang on, live with him.


I am not confused, if you think I am :-)
I am just sharing with you a possible fact -
Every emotion cannot be defined - this or that.
There is always something that cannot be expressed -
Something-in-Between!

O Cold, my Nose ..

This is a very silly poem .. very silly indeed!
But this is all I can do when I have him ruling my world ..

Running down the slope ..
Circling up the hole ..
How sudden is your visit!
Your stay is enjoyed least :-(

Like a student dreads a teacher..
Like a thief fears a cop..
As Jerry runs from Tom..
A motorist from the Red Stop..

You are most hated!
Yet you come and go.
Shameless and stubborn -
You run up and down my little nose.

The world looks so sick,
On everyone around I pick.
You enter on the moment's nick,
I wish i could shoo you with a kick!

You stay for as long as you wish,
You mess my nose, for tissues I fish.
My eyes shrink, my face bloats,
The whole day my nose I blow.

Napkins after napkins...
Fill the dust bins.
You still stay for long,
For your exit, I long!

You appear every quarter,
Your performance getting better!
You make me wonder where you sit,
My nose has space just for air to fit!

They call you "the cold",
The evil that strikes, young and old.
I decide to stand bold,
Dear Cold, you will soon get sold :-)

I think it is nice - From the Net

Hold on, please!

Its so much fun to win, much more to win again and a lot more to win always.
This poem is dedicated to my friends who have struggled all their way to what they are today.
This poem is in appreciation of their patience.
This poem is to motivate them to keep trying.
This poem is for me and all my dear and near friends!

Hold on, please!

Patience, stamina, endurance ...
They all sound like condolence!
I will advocate the same ...
If life was little more sane!

If life was little more sane,
If the heart felt lesser pain,
Happier i will be today ...
Laughing and giggling with gay!

The seasons took them all in share,
Too much for me to bear!
The wind blew my falling hair ...
I believed fate would be fair!

I believed fate would be fair,
I was hoping i could dare.
Patience, stamina, endurance - passed with age ...
Today, I stand alone on this stage!

I dont know where to go ...
I dont know where i want to go ...
But i know i want to sail ...
I dont want to turn more pale!

I dont want to turn more pale ...
I want to try, even if i fail!
I have put everything on the bait ...
I will trust myself, not just my fate!

Think before you HONK

I was just thinking ....

- why do we sound a loud horn when the vehicle ahead of us has stopped for unknown reasons and the driver/rider is making all attempts to get it started?

- why do we honk when we are all standing at a signal and the light says red, which means Stop?

- why do we honk when the signal has turned green but still the traffic is not moving? Are we thinking that "I am the only one who has seen the color change and the rest are sleeping!"?

I was further thinking ...

- why dont we honk when we intend to overtake?

-why dont we honk when we intend to cut our neighbour's track?

- why dont we honk when we want to change lane?

- why dont we honk when we want to say, "let me go" or "I plan to go" or worse "i cannot wait for you, i go, you wait"?

- why dont we honk when we feel the person ahead of us has not seen us coming?

- why dont we honk to alert the pedestrians crossing the road?

I am thinking ... no I just decided that i am going to make sincere efforts to honk as less as possible and also not miss when needed :-)

I think ... I am already feeling better!

Complications

How often we complicate life with simple things!

How often we complicate life because of negligence!

How often we complicate life on account of ignorance!

How often we complicate life failing to communicate!

Think, if you could have avoided some of these many complications in life.

Think, if being more aware and communicative would have reduced your stress.

If you think not, then think again.

If you think yes, then think more.

Think and make life easier, for you and for me and the entire human race!

Live and let live :-)

Smile Please :-)

Smiling is infectious,

You can catch it like the flu.

Someone smiled at me today,

And I started smiling too.

GOOD DAY!

Svatantrata divas - just a holiday?

Good morning!

I think of India. I think about India. I think for India.

I think.

Do you?

Mein sochthi hoon.

Kya aap sochthe hain?